Lesbian Dating Horror Stories – Part 1

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I always have hilarious conversations with my friends about dating. Pretty much all of my friends (including me) are single and on the prowl, so to speak. We all exchange dating horror stories and good stories when we see each … Continue reading

My 10 Rules for an Awesome Life

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Life is a funny thing. It isn’t predictable and it’s never what we expect, yet it’s still incredible. Even the bad moments teach us something if we look hard enough. We as humans are constantly changing, growing and learning. It makes every day exciting and new. I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about life’s unpredictability and I thought to myself what have I learned so far? I’m not trying to say I hold the answers to living a gratifying and fulfilling life, but I feel like I have learned quite a bit in my young life.

My friend encouraged me to sit down and think about my rules (what’s important to me). What internal rules govern how I make decisions or live my life? It’s definitely more of a daunting task than I thought because you never consciously think about what values or pillars rule your life. You just live it. But here they are…. My life rules:

1. Find One Good Thing in Every Day

Let’s face it, we all have our shitty days. Those days when we don’t feel like anything will every go our way. Some people find the negatives in everything because they don’t know any other way. The glass half empty complex. I view life as whatever I want it to be. No matter what horrible thing happens in my day, I always take a step back and think about how lucky I am or what I have to look forward to. Dinner with a friend, going home to my dog or even the book I get to read when I get home. Life is really whatever you want it to be. You’ll also find that viewing at least one positive in life changes the way others view you and changes your overall happiness. I know it did for me. There is always one good thing in your life, trust me.

2.  Never Stop Learning and Growing

Never accept the status quo. Challenge yourself to be a better person and to expand your point of view. Learn new skills, go back to school or even have a controversial conversation. Allow yourself to be open to learning new things or maybe hearing a different point of view. Looking forward to learning something new helps me get up everyday. Personal growth is one of the most rewarding things in my opinion

3.  Love Yourself First

Loving yourself is the first step to a fulfilling life. You can’t give love without self-love. For example, identifying as gay or lesbian was extremely difficult, but I found the more comfortable I was with it – the more comfortable other people were. Take the steps to learn how to accept your weirdness, nerdiness and uniqueness. Own your awkwardness (which I can be at times) and other people will view it as confidence. There is nothing sexier than someone comfortable in their own skin.

4.  Make Mistakes

Don’t be afraid to make mistakes. Mistakes help you learn and grow and become better. The biggest lessons are those learned from our mistakes. Perfection doesn’t exist, so take risks and don’t be afraid to fail. The greatest minds in history failed at least once before they got it right. Life wouldn’t be nearly as exciting if we were all perfect all the time (picture the step ford wives eek!).

5. Love Others Unconditionally

This seems similar to number 3, but it’s different. Once you love yourself, love others unconditionally. Let your guard down (when it feels right) and put all your love into someone or something. Let yourself feel by giving love or receiving love. A life without the love of our friends, family or relationships would be unfulfilling. One of the most rewarding feelings is being able to give the gift of love to someone else and feel that love returned.

6.  Bros Before Hoes (Value Friendships)

In case you don’t know what this means – friends before the preferred sex. It could be friends before boys or vice versa. Put your friendships before that new crush or girl you’re dating because in the end, your friends will always be there for you. They will be the ones there for you if you break up or if you partner passes on. Friends are like family. There for you in any time of need.

7.  Trust Your Instincts

 Gut feelings are usually right. If you meet someone and feel like something is off, something probably is. The same thing goes for iffy situations. Don’t brush off any red flags whether it be related to a situation or a person. Something you may see as a small red flag in the beginning will most likely turn into a major problem. I see this a lot with my friends. They ignore the red flags in the beginning and the relationship fails. It’s never surprising, but it’s also hard to do in practice. Try to save yourself the heart attack and grumbles by paying attention to the red flags. Easier said than done I know.

 8.  Stand by Your Values

 Values are extremely important. They make you who you are and they guide your decisions. They are also play a major role in romantic and platonic compatibility. Values are the basis for any relationship. It’s also a similarity that forms the basis for a lasting relationship or even friendship. Remember what’s important to you and never lose sight of it.Savor the Moment

 9. Savor the Moment

My dad’s best friend had it right. The guy knew he wasn’t going to live a very long life and he lived his like every day was his last. He lived it like he would never have another identical moment in time. He made every moment count. We are constantly on our phones, instagramming or doing something on a social network. We constantly document our lives, but are we really living in the moment? We take pictures, but do we really remember what happened in the photo? I am trying to live my life like I won’t have another moment because we all don’t know how much time we really have. We always say there is plenty of time, but that’s not always true. Embrace every moment, take risks and don’t leave any questions. Savor every precious moment with those you love and make every moment count.

 10.  Follow Your Heart

 The brain and the heart tend to be in constant battle, but in the end the heart tends to always win. Decisions made with your heart won’t necessarily make sense to others, but all that matters is how you feel. You have to live with you and your decisions, so follow your heart to wherever makes you happy. Disclaimer: I’m not implying to take all logic out of the equation, but sometimes the things that don’t make the most sense end up making you the most happy. Visualize a scale and let your heart outweigh your head.

One last note.. Remember what’s important to you and put those things first. This is the swiss army knife of rules. My default.

Moments of Clarity – Coming Out 7 Years Later

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Coming out for the first time was one of the scariest, most difficult and most memorable moments of my entire life. I still think back to how that one moment and those few words changed my life. I knew for awhile that I was gay before I came out, but it never hit me how things would change. It never hit me how I would have to come out to almost every person I came close to. When you come out for the first time you think “whewww.. it’s over”, but it’s never over. It gets easier because you get more comfortable with your sexuality, but you will – for the rest of your life – have to come out to anyone you get close to. I still wonder how people will react when I tell them. I’ve written in past posts about how I’m lucky I have never personally experienced hate, but it still worries me. Because everyone eventually experiences it. Some people experience it from their families, friends and even coworkers.

It deeply saddens me how often people choose to judge others based on how they live their life when the truth is that what other people do has no affect on you. I like this metaphor, “What you eat won’t make me fat.” Homosexuality isn’t a disease or an infection and it doesn’t cause lack of ambition. Being gay is a predisposition (my opinion). Why would I choose to be gay and make my life more difficult? Homesexuality isn’t contagious. I hate when people tell other people they can’t be around their kids because they don’t want it catching. Hello! If it was catching we wouldn’t want to be around your kids! You think that we want to make life harder for other people. I love my life and I am secure/happy with my sexuality, but I wouldn’t wish being gay upon anyone because of how harsh and cruel society can be. I wouldn’t want someone to experience the hate that I’ve seen and heard about. I wouldn’t want someone to be afraid to be who they are. Life is so short. Why do we spend the time we have judging other people?

I’m encountering a situation right now, at my new job, where as usual people assume I’m straight. I’ve been worried about correcting them honestly. I like to keep my personal life private because my work is important to me. I don’t want a view of my personal life to change how my performance is viewed. My work should speak for itself without any other governing factors. After 7 years of being out, you would think I would be more comfortable. I come out all the time right? It does get easier with every person, but every situation is different. There will always be people who don’t accept you. Just don’t get bogged down in the negative. Ultimately you have to live with you and your happiness is the priority. Take every situation as it comes and decide whether to tell people accordingly. I still have to decide whether to correct my coworkers. My manager asked me if I wanted a new hobby “to meet men.” I had to keep myself from busting out laughing. Hey, at least their misconception about my sexuality brings me some laughs. Remember the positive always :)

Feel free to share your advice or stories about coming out in the comments.

 

Moments of Clarity: Sexuality Doesn’t Have to be Labeled

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I used to view sexuality as black and white. There was no gray area for me – a feeling that isn’t unusual for other people as well. I never understood bisexuality even though I am gay. I always thought why can’t they choose? It was easy for me when I figured it out, but it’s not always so simple. I was like a lot of lesbians who viewed bisexuality as a non-decision. People told me you don’t want to date someone who isn’t gay because they might leave you for a man. The truth is.. a lesbian could just as easily break my heart for a woman. I was closing myself off because of a fear my environment had conditioned me to have. I’m gay and I even admit to being closed-minded.

The reality is sexuality is fluid. It’s a spectrum, but there are no rules. There are no rules as to where you must fall to be gay or straight. You write your own rules. It’s your choice whether you do or don’t label yourself. You are the one living your own life, so don’t let anyone else convince you that you have to choose a side or be someone society feels like you should be. Labels are a convention to make society feel more comfortable because we all know people love boxes.

We put limitations on our thoughts and feelings because of fear. Fear tends to hinder us from living fulfilling lives and taking risks. It limits our acceptance of other people and ideas. Fear is what makes us overthink and makes us less accepting. Most people don’t want to be open minded to things they don’t know. That’s why we’ve had this struggle with equality. I know I have had my own personal struggles understanding other sexualities. It’s natural, but it is not something we can’t change. You have to keep your mind open to other points-of-view and to understand things that are foreign to you. That’s how I’ve been able to expand my mind.

I think love is hard enough without putting labels on people and trying to explain your feelings. If you are able to feel a connection with someone regardless of their gender, more power to you. I wish I could look past the gender and fall for the person. I think the people who are able to open their minds to something they never thought was a possibility are brave. In a time where human rights is such a hot topic, we all need to start working towards listening and understanding things that are different to us. There is no shame in acceptance. There is only shame in judgment towards something you know nothing about or haven’t tried to understand.

We are constantly fighting for people to be more kind to one another. Why should I or anyone else judge someone based on who they love? Life is short and if you are able to find someone special that is of the same sex or the opposite sex, you are pretty damn lucky. Happiness is everyone’s ultimate goal. Who cares the gender of the partner that brings you that happiness. Leave yourself open to something new and different. Love is so much better than fear.

Moments of Clarity – Growing Up

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I’m going through another big transition in my life and it’s scary. It’s exciting, but it’s still scary. I resigned from my job today. I’m taking another job that will better my career. Sounds awesome right? Well the resignation part was not fun. Think about sitting in front of a manager that had no idea you were even looking for a job. Talk about awkward, but it is what it is. It was time for me to move on.

I took my agency job right out of graduate school because it was a good start, but not a career. You could wear whatever you wanted and shoot nerf guns. I know. It sounds like a dream job, but it wasn’t. I was bored out of my mind and management was really hard to deal with. For 9 months, I just kept thinking I went to graduate school for this? I stuck it out too and it was worth it. I learned a lot and now I have a position that I can really build into a career. My dad positions this new job as “grown-up” because of the hours and business casual attire, but the truth is my agency job was grown-up even with it’s easy going nature. Why do I say that? I had to stick something out that I didn’t like and still give it 110%. I think that’s when you really grow up – when you have to do something you don’t like and you still give your all because you know it’s a stepping stone.

I’m also going through some other big changes. I’m in the process of looking for and buying a house. It’s a huge step and another thing that’s scary, yet exciting. I just think it’s funny how it is all happening at the same time. It just happened to fit perfectly. A new job and buying my first home. I feel so grown-up that sometime I forget I’m 26. I forget that I am still young and to go have fun. I’ve just always had a drive for success that I can’t ignore. I thrive on challenge. It’s why I think I have found some sort of success at an early age. It also makes it hard to date.

I’ve been told I come off “nerdy” and serious. I’ve been told I don’t have the personality that fills the room, but that’s because I’m busy watching and absorbing. One thing I am not is serious. I’m a total dork and goofball. I like to have fun. I have made some not so great decisions in my personal life. Haven’t we all though? My personal life is where I allow for these mistakes because my career is so important to me. I leave my mistakes for the part of my life with the smallest aftershock because I believe mistakes are what make us alive and human. Never feel bad for making mistakes as long as you learn from them.

Maybe I am settled for a 26 year old, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I am single and incredibly happy. I’m going to enjoy life for awhile to get ready for the next steps. That’s the great part about life. The next steps.

Moments of Clarity – The First Date

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Dating really is a pain in the ass. I’m lucky because I don’t really get the nerves that most people get unless I really like someone, which happens very rarely. I like to think of the first date as a pre-screening, like an interview. You get to know the person’s basics and you see whether you want to know more. My view is the first date should never be nerve wracking. It should be exciting, new and different – but never scary. There is way too much emphasis in making a good first impression that people often times forget to be themselves.

I have taken the approach to being exactly who I am on a first date – weird jokes, awkward comments and all. Why do I do this? Because the truth is.. if someone truly likes you or wants to get to know you more, they know in the first 15 minutes. Everything after the first 15 minutes is just a value add. I can definitely say that I usually know whether I like someone within the first 15 minutes and whatever the person says after that really doesn’t matter (unless there is a deal breaker that happens to work it’s way into conversation). It’s kind of one of those things where once you like someone you’re enamored and that’s it. Sad, but true. We tend to ignore the things that annoy us or are less attractive in someone’s personality once we like them.

So what do you really have to lose by being yourself? Leading into a date or even a relationship as some weird version of yourself may lead to eventual incompatibility with the person you’re with. I like to call the best version of yourself the “representative.” The representative is the person you are when you are trying to impress someone. The version of yourself that doesn’t get cranky when you PMS, doesn’t get jealous and will try any food even though you dislike it. The representative is hard to maintain, which is why early break-ups usually occur between 3 and 6 months. You usually know within 6 months whether the person you’re with is going to be a long-term relationship.

Let’s not get off topic though. This post is about the illustrious first date. The first date that sets the tone for more dates or maybe even a relationship (gasp) and sometimes, the awkward “I’m just not feeling this” talk. I truly believe if you are yourself in every aspect of your life, including on first dates,  you will enjoy life a lot more. Being yourself is strength and true confidence. Confidence is probably the most attractive quality someone can possess. It doesn’t come easy, but allowing yourself to show the real you is the first step. Especially on a first a first date. So wear what you want to wear, make stupid jokes and make the first move if it feels right. Remember if someone doesn’t like you for you then they aren’t worth your time. A first date is only an audition. If you don’t get the part, guaranteed there will be more. As my dad has always said to me, “Date as many people as you need to date until you meet someone who makes you want to stop.”

My Coming Out Story

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I want to make sure to choose my words carefully. I came out when I was 19 after I realized I was attracted to my female best friend. Isn’t that always how it goes? Well for me, she was completely straight. Totally fine, but that didn’t lead to anything. The first person I came out to was a guy I had dated on and off for a couple years. I could barely get it out. Hell the only thing I could get out was that I was bi, which is what I thought I was for about 6 months. At that point I hadn’t even kissed a girl, I just knew that I felt something more. So what did I do to explore these feelings? You’re going to laugh just wait. I found out where the pride club was held on campus and targeted the president (a definite lesbian). I had no idea where else to find the elusive.. lesbian. Oh me at age 19. It still makes me laugh. Anyway, we went out on a date and she kissed me. It was like the skies parted and some little guardian angel lesbian hopped on my shoulder and was like.. you’re gay stupid – it all makes sense! Well that was kind of it for me. I never dated guys again.

Now the juicy part. How did I tell my parents? My parents are divorced, so I had to do that separately. I chose to tell my dad on the weekend my brother was getting married. Great timing I know. I sat down next to him on the other side of the couch freaked out to the point where I was scanning all the exits just in case I needed to run. I had no idea how I was going to tell him. I sat there going “umm, umm, umm.” The guy probably thought I was pregnant or something! When I finally could get the words out I said, “Dad I have something to tell you.. I play for both teams.” He gave this really quizzical look and said, “You’re a switch hitter!” Yes, I went the bi route. The transitional route, but it’s always the easiest. Gets people used to the idea. He had the funniest reaction looking back. At the time it wasn’t. He was so freaked out he even went to a bar, which he never does. My dad barely drinks and NEVER goes to bars. My dad’s girlfriend, at the time, had to meet him and calm him down. He treated me really differently for about a week. After about a year I told him “no more guys.” It was as easy as that. He never questioned any more about it. He got more and more comfortable as the years went on. Now we talk about everything. Who I’m dating and he gives me advice. I’m so lucky for how things ended up. We have an amazing relationship and I love him to death. I couldn’t ask for a better dad.

My mom was a different story. When I told her I was gay she said, “Oh honey.. it’s probably phase.” I was like, “No mom definitely not a phase.” I never even had to tell her when I was completely gay. I just never brought any more guys around and always dated girls. She asked once and I told her. She’s always been really funny about it. I just thought it was weird how she didn’t see it coming. Completely blows my mind honestly. I hated dresses and had more boy interests than my brother. She’s been great about it though. Extremely supportive and just awesome.

When I told my brother he said, “I knew!” He was completely unphased and basically said, “moving on.” The story that should have set everyone’s gaydar off happened when I was six years old and they left my brother and I, who was 13, at the hairdresser. The hairdresser asked what haircut I wanted and I said I wanted to look like my brother. The guys ACTUALLY cut my hair to look like my brother. My mom was furious. I will never forget her yelling at the guy saying, “You listened to a six year old!” I have no doubt that guy got fired. However, I loved my haircut until I got to school and everyone called me a boy. These six graders even tried to give me a swirly in the bathroom because they said boys weren’t allowed in the girls bathroom. I didn’t go to the bathroom at school until I was in middle school and I was teased until my hair grew out. I don’t think people should be made of fun for what makes them feel comfortable. Just because you don’t understand something, doesn’t mean it isn’t right. Honestly, if you’re happy and you stay true to yourself then nothing else matters.

Coming out is never easy. I wish I could say it was. I just know you should never let someone push you to come out. It should be done when you are ready. It will never be the right time and you will always be nervous. There are just better times when you reach a point where you feel some confidence and some comfort in yourself. I was very lucky with how accepting everyone is my life has been, but it doesn’t always go well. There isn’t any standard advice either. It all depends on your family and your circumstance, but what I will say is be true to your values and do what makes you happy. Everyone deserves a fulfilling life with freedom to be whoever they want to be.

Your sexual orientation does not define who you are as a person. What you do for those around you, your accomplishments and your values define who you are. You love who you love and it’s not a choice. Why would anyone make a choice that makes life more difficult?

Moments of Clarity – Putting the Past Behind You

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I’ve decided to start doing a weekly blog series in addition to my random posts that you all so lovely read and comment on. I’ve been reaching moments of clarity recently. Moments where everything comes together and I learn something new about myself, others or life in general. I thought I would start sharing them with you as a public journal.

I wrote a new blog post yesterday about heartbreak. Something I had been meaning to do for a very long time. It was hard for me to remember and open up those wounds, but at the same time it was cathartic. I realized today, during my lunch, that I have put a lot of effort into dating people I knew would never be long-term. I did it because it was an easy way to protect myself. It’s funny because I am so put together on paper. The girl with the great job, the MBA, her own apartment and a really nice car. I’ve spent my whole life doing what my family has expected of me because they have supported me financially. I’ve been very lucky and blessed in my life. I will never have to pay off student loans or anything. I know my family will always be there if I ever need them and not many people can say that. There is a price you pay when you allow your family to support you because even in my early 20s, I had a responsibility to do what they wanted. I never had a chance to make mistakes. My life was always careful executed and planned, so that I would never have to find my way up after hitting rock bottom. I thank my parents for this, but at the same time I also wish I had been able to be a teenager or do something rebellious. I turned out to be very successful for my age, publicly. My private life, now that’s a different story.

I’ve talked about my ex-girlfriend of 3 years, alluded to my serial dating and written posts about what I wanted in the future. I’m one of those people that can’t take my own advice. I’ve had this amazing girl, who I met when I moved here, that has treated me better than anyone I’ve ever dated or could hope to date. I’ve messed it up twice by breaking up with her for stupid reasons like I talked myself out of feelings or I couldn’t exactly forecast what our future would be. I didn’t realize how defensive I was acting. I was avoiding being hurt by cutting it off. If I couldn’t forecast the end result then that was too much uncertainty. We tried and we just have different lifestyles, but that’s okay. The right girl will come along and that is worth the wait.

My life has always been planned and for some reason I’ve felt like my personal life was the only area where I could make mistakes. When I was younger, I dated 3 girls at once and my friends had to run interference when they all showed up at a speaking event I was at. I mean biggest douche bag move ever right? That was me at 20. I pushed it and dated whoever I wanted. Hell, I’ve done that until this year. I finally recognized the pattern and I’m putting a stop to it. When you find a person that loves you for everything you are and says that it’s your issues that make you special, that’s someone you don’t let go. If you know that you want some sort of future with them that’s all that matters even if you can’t for sure say it will. Our best self does not always come easy, so keep the ones around you that allow you to be your best self. Who cares about the others. The right girl is worth the uncertainty.

Overcoming Heartbreak – First Love Edition

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Heartbreak is one of the hardest things you can go through as human. It’s one of the most extreme emotions one can feel and one of the hardest to overcome. It changes you as a person in many different ways. I got my heartbroken almost three years ago. It was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever dealt with in my short life. It’s an interesting story because she was also my first real love. I thought she was going to be my first and my last.

I met her (I am not using her name to protect anonymity) in the fall of 2008 and the chemistry was instant. The first time we had really ever spoken was on the eve of new member retreat. She somehow ended up in my car on the way over and next to me when we all went to sleep. We stayed up talking for hours. I searched for her number in our new member packet and immediately texted her when I got home (I know resourceful). They gave all the girls number in this book. I’m sure they didn’t think it would be used for that purpose, but hey it worked. We dated for 6 months and moved in together. We were together for another 2 years after that. I proposed to her in November of 2010 and she said yes. I never pictured a future without her. She even moved back to my hometown of Las Vegas with me after college. That’s when things really fell apart. I broke up with her in January of 2011 and we lived together for 6 months after that. Stupidest mistake I’ve ever made. Do not live with someone after you’ve broken up. She played me like a fool. Dating and telling me we were on a break. We would be together at home and when we were out.. I was just a friend. Most people who knew us in college were shocked that we broke up. They never saw what our relationship was really like.

She would still talk to guys she dated and one even proposed her in the beginning of our relationship. She said he just didn’t get boundaries, but I knew better. She told me she never cheated and I don’t really believe that. It doesn’t really matter what she identified as at that point. I just know she was never honest with me. I paid for everything. Another rookie mistake. She never paid for rent and my parents paid off her credit cards (nuts I know). That’s just how my parents are. They just did it. She didn’t grow up with money and someone that is important to me is important to them. She took advantage. She never thanked them and she treated me like shit. It was always something. I was never good enough no matter what I did.

The worst part about this relationship was how emotionally abusive she was and I didn’t even see it. It took my friends in Las Vegas saying, “Why do you let her talk down to you” to really get that something was off and not right. I let her treat me like that for years. She had periods of depression and would take these times out on me. She would with-hold sex and if I didn’t jump when she wanted to, I would miss the opportunity until the next month. Everything was under her control. She used her looks in any way she could and not just against me. She’s one of those people that knows she’s attractive and she uses it. The most beautiful people are no longer attractive when their personalities take an ugly form.

She will always be the girl that hurt me the most out of anyone. It’s taken me this long to confront it and let it go. After our breakup, I didn’t allow myself get close to anyone because I didn’t trust my own judgment. I got so used to the ups and downs and the fighting that normal and nice and wonderful was boring and foreign. It should never be like that, which is why I still reflect on that relationship. There is always one relationship that defines everything. This was that relationship. I learned a lot from it and I grew as a person. There are things I thank her for, but there were still more bad times than good. I will always view relationships in a more critical way because of how mentally and physically sick she caused me to be. I want who ever is reading this to at least remember this one thing from my story. You should never sacrifice your own mental health for someone else. You are number one and you should always come first. You are the one that ultimately has to live with you.

People don’t realize how special it is to find someone who accepts you for everything that you are. That treats you like every small issue you have is what makes you special. I will never again let someone make me feel like I’m not good enough. I’ve messed up some good things in my life because when I get scared I run. I run because I don’t want to get hurt again. I’ve realized how stupid this is because it’s not really living. I get so scared because I  seriously misjudged someone character and let myself get trampled all over. This is why I stress taking things slow and getting to know someone. If I had opened my eyes, I may have seen the red flags. Don’t settle for anything less than you deserve.

I am finally letting it go. I’m ready to start living my life again and allowing myself to be vulnerable. Do yourself a favor by allowing yourself to feel and leaving the past in the past. Eventually you will heal. It may take three years ha , but you’ll get there. Don’t allow yourself anything less than a relationship that is equal and healthy. Sometimes heartbreak ends up as a good thing because you learn to appreciate the good people that come into your life. I know I do.

Lesbians and Emotional Burn Out

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Lesbians make me nuts. Have I said that before? Probably. I’ve said women are nuts and lesbian woman are even more nuts. I can’t say it enough. Two woman together is double trouble. Double the hormones and double the emotions. With the mass of emotions comes an insane cycle of emotions. Lesbians express their emotions fast and cling, most of the time, to the first girl they have feelings for. As an experienced lesbian, you never want to be the first girlfriend. Why? The first girlfriend and first love is always the most intense. No matter what sexual orientation the feelings can be just as strong. I think lesbian women express emotions so quickly with one another because there is a mutual understanding of sorts. Something then men can never tap into. It’s the whole mars and venus thing I suppose.

I can say that when I was 19 I was definitely a clinger (yuck I know). I clung to the first girlfriend I had. I had just come out of the closet and I thought she was best thing since Nintendo (don’t judge my video game reference I am a nerd). It’s different with your first because, at least for me, when I finally found the person and gender I felt the most naturally attracted to the feelings were different. I don’t condone the cling because I think lesbians could benefit from slowing down, but I will admit I have done it. Now onto discussing some more about this whole lesbian speedy cling thing.

Let’s first define speedy in the lesbian world.. I’m talking 0-60 in 3.6 seconds. It’s like taking a Porsche down a road course that you’ve never driven down going 180 mph. Now that either sounds scary or awesome. Going fast in dating exposes you to things like unstable people, emotional injury, and what I am going to call emotional burn out – The biggest problem in lesbian dating. What is emotional burnout? It’s what happens when you spend too much time with someone and you have no time to miss them. You don’t allow things to happen naturally.

It’s so unnecessary to see someone you’re dating every day. I think  2-3 times a week is more than enough. You need to have your own life and the time to miss someone. I understand that the beginning stages of a relationship are exciting and you want to spend all your time with someone, but SLOW DOWN. Take the time to savor the moments you have. What’s the rush? Going from 0-60 will only lead to burnout.